There I was standing in the bridal shop with the wedding dress I chose to wear on the big day. I tried to remember why I liked it so much in the first place. I kept thinking to myself how heavy it was and that I didn't like the front or the way it fit. I was angry. I wanted it off immediately.
Every time I tried to lift my arms I would get stuck halfway. I hated that I wouldn't be able to hug anyone on the big day, but that I'd have to keep my arms by my side. I hated that the dress didn't feel like me.
My Mom and I were there for the final fitting and the alterations manager messed up. As in, kept the dress in the bag for 4 weeks instead of making any changes. When we showed up to our appointment, the woman we'd been working with for months had taken a personal day. In my head I kept myself calm by saying, "Okay, everything is okay, as long as she can explain to someone how the dress should be, we should be all good, even though there's less than 40 days until the wedding."
My positive thoughts were short-lived. There would not be enough time to make the changes. The dress grew claustrophobic and I raced towards the dressing room, I could not zip it off fast enough! Nothing was working out. The special bra we bought was a disaster and the double sided tape was ripping my skin off. I hated it. I decided that was it. After multiple disappointing appointments, I hated the stupid thing + no longer wanted it a part of the big day. It was on to point B. Find a new dress. I never even knew I cared so much about a damn wedding dress, but it matters! I am hoping to have ONE wedding and by golly if I am getting married I am going to feel good in the dress.
Thank God for my Mama, my sister who we face timed with in the process of finding a new look and my best friend Courtney, who I sent pictures too while searching and trying on a whole slew of dresses.
I kept repeating out loud to my Mom and to myself, "everything will work out."
And it did. The store felt so bad for their mistake that the did a full exchange + I ended up getting a more "me" dress. It is light. I can move my arms and I don't need double sided tape!
When you are going wedding dress shopping, you should find something that feels and looks really good on your body. Be careful to not let the sales lady talk you into something and persuade you, remember she is making commission off the price. It is your day, your decision + ultimately, your happiness!