If it weren't for this guy, I'd be a, "BOSS LADY, WORLD TRAVELER, GO GO DANCER, CALIFORNIA YOGA TEACHER." But none of those things compare to being his wife. I have finally accepted the fact that I am growing up. That fact does not mean that planning our wedding has been enjoyable.
I try to keep a positive mind + have fun with it, but I am the anti-bride. I don't even like attending bridal showers, they are ridiculous to me. I love Bachelorette parties!!! Those are fun! You get to hang with your gals, go out on the town and spend more hours with them than you have in years!!
Getting back to the wedding though. I am not a planner, I really love to fly by the seat of my pants and knowing that there is now less than two months until I am a bride has sent me into a tizzy. I am so tired, better yet, exhausted. I don't have energy regardless of taking Stress B supplements, getting enough sleep, drinking an adequate amount of water + eating like the wholesome gal I am. I workout, don't drink alcohol , consume little to no sugar + I still cannot shake this tired feeling. I know it's the wedding. I know it's stressing about what comes after the wedding.
Life is changing. My name is changing. My career changes daily. Change is good, but change is stressful, no matter how you look at it, it's a lot of different emotions. I've had this feeling before, where the elephant takes a big squat on my chest and doesn't feel like leaving. He takes his sweet time as he gets heavier and heavier until I have to remind myself to breathe. Funny to be a yoga teacher reminding myself to breathe when that's the word I repeat the most in class.
I can feel the flip switching, perhaps a change of heart. Yay! The elephant has started to lift and I'm brainstorming about positive moments. I think the best part of wedding brainstorm is thinking about friends + family dancing, eating and smiling all weekend long!!! Isn't that why weddings were created? They are mini reunions and just an excuse to dance until your feet fall off! Do you see how all of that turned around? I was stressed, thinking about how tired I was and then I started writing. And now I am excited!!!! If this doesn't give you a perspective on how journaling can help, I don't know what does. In a matter of minutes, I am a changed woman. Wedding planning might not be so bad (insert teeth gritting grin).
Now open your journal and get to jotting!