I was getting ready for the Dave Matthews Band concert at the Gorge and couldn't find anything that fit. Every swimsuit I tried on was too small and there was no way in hell I was wearing shorts. I said, "screw it" and put on a bikini with a long dress. I have never felt more uncomfortable in my own body. I was tipping the scale at 148 pounds, but having a curvy, proportionate body made it hard to see how much weight I had gained. I was an expert at disguise, until I saw pictures of my face. My sweet, plumped up face.