If you've been reading my posts, you know that I've suffered from vertigo since 2009. It is 2015. That is 6 years of a balance disorder while teaching yoga, barre, Fit Girl classes, conducting health coaching sessions and releasing a detox program.
BUT until last year, I did not dip my fingers in each of these projects. I cancelled classes due to permanent placement on the couch. I remember two times when I thought that life could not go on while I was feeling so terrible. The first time it happened, I looked in the mirror. Really looked into my eyes and thoughts swirled at rapid speed. The first thought, "If I continue to feel this bad, it is not worth living." The second thought was similar. I never thought about how I would end my life, but I knew that what was happening to me was scary and I didn't feel safe in my own head. I kept trying to escape my thoughts. I'd go to multiple yoga classes a day, hang out with friends, have the TV on, go on walks, blast the music and dread when nighttime came because that meant I was alone with my thoughts.
Last night I returned from my second visit to MY FAVORITE DOCTOR IN THE ENTIRE WORLD, Dr. Gerry Snelling of Snelling Total Wellness in San Francisco. He's a 70 year old guy who moves like he's 50 and has the funniest sense of humor. He is an expert at listening to your body and finding out what's going on using multiple approaches.
The first time I visited him was a few months back, January I think and I was diagnosed with pancreatitis and a bad infection.
This last time I was on his table asking and answering for 75 minutes or so. My pancreatitis is GONE!! After taking 15-20 supplements a day and following a clean eating diet, I am glad to say it is gone! BUT with the inflammation of my pancreas down, we got clued into what was happening beneath it.
Vertigo = 2009. Thailand = 2009. In Thailand I picked up a parasite. And it does not want to go away. Dr. Gerry put me on new supplements for an infection in my small intestine and a completely separate diagnosis, an inner ear infection that's been affecting my balance.
This doctor is the only doctor who has made a difference in my life and if I have to travel to San Francisco every 3-4 months for the rest of my life, I will go. I am a completely different person that I was months ago. I have energy, a healthy glow and clear thinking.
There were times along this journey when I stopped going to doctors and lost faith. I thought that this was my life forever and I was going to fake it in social situations while on the inside, thinking about how I wish I could lean on something or sit down because of the intense spinning.
I am urging you not to give up. Do not take no for an answer and if you have to work a few extra jobs to pay for your medical bills, do it! Your health is the most important thing in the world. Do not take it for granted!!