I've had several clients tell me their weight loss struggles and all I can do is agree + tell them that I've been there too.
Think about how many diets you've been on. How many challenges, detoxes, cleanses, juice fasts, Weight Watchers, Jenny Craig, Paleo, Vegan, Whole 30, AdvoCare, Medifast, Shakeology, essential oils, eating clean, 80/20 rule, Master Cleanse will you put your body through?
Personally, I started with Weight Watchers as a senior in high school and I truly believe it was the beginning of an eating disorder. Counting those points made me CRAZY about what I ate. I was an athlete in high school and needed more wholesome foods, but all I was learning about was points + calories. Come on. As a high schooler, do you think I was making the right caloric choices?
"Okay, this bag of Cheeto's is 300 calories, I have 900 left until I've met my max. If I have some mac n' cheese or top ramen, I might meet it, but I might have room for an old fashioned donut."
By 2 PM I am over my points and think, "fuck it." I've already blown it. And now I'm so depressed that I can't even stick to a diet, I guess I'll eat more. Think to myself that I'll never lose weight. It didn't even occur to me why I was even trying to lose weight? Where did that enter my head that as an 18 year old, I should be losing weight.
Enter the phenomenon of a women only circuit workout. CURVES. My Mom joined & since I've always enjoyed working out (it's my anti-depressant), I asked her to add me to the membership. From working out + learning a little bit more about weights and heart rate, measurements and ideal weight ranges, I lost 4 pounds and several inches. HOT DAMN!
For someone like me, getting obsessed used to be too easy. I was an extremist until I was 26. I am now 31 and VERY far from any sort of black and white thinking.
I went from 2-3 Curve workouts a week to 5-6. They offered me a job and I started working there. I lost even more weight.
It was around the time I started college and signed up for a class called Life Fitness. To pass the class, you had to work out 5 days a week for a minimum of 40 minutes. So I had two workouts a day, sometimes more if Curves was slow.
Weighing myself multiple times a day became the norm and within 6 months, I had dropped 20 pounds. I didn't even have 20 pounds to lose!!
It wasn't just about food. It wasn't just about calories. It was an obsession. One I have worked EXTREMELY hard to heal. It took me about three years to find a lifestyle that worked for me. I ditched a toxic romantic relationship, sugar, gluten, dairy + found my voice. The one that preaches living your life without calorie counting + food obsession.
Food is definitely part of weight loss + happiness, but it is not everything. It's an essential ingredient to an empowering, energetic, gorgeous life.
If you stop searching for a solution + come to peace that you are whole enough, without all the crap and diets, you will start to breathe easier. Give yourself the chance to live.
You can do this. All of this. Being overwhelmed is the beginning. But when you figure out what to eat, how to live, what type of exercise your body responds to, you will find your own body love.
Peace to you + your thoughts.
LOVE YOU SO MUCH!