I felt it this morning. You know the feeling...the one where your eyes get a little bigger and you almost propel out of bed. It's called INSPIRATION and it hits us at the weirdest moments.
I love writing. I almost never check what I've written for fear that I will not publish it. If I reread what I've written, I second guess, see typo's and read what I didn't mean to write. It's like talking. In your head it makes perfect sense, but sometimes the words escape your mouth.
For two or so months, I've felt uninspired. So low that staying in bed is the only thing that sounds good. I've had a lot of time to think - which can be good and bad. I've spun out of control in my thoughts (ADD LAND) and sunk into the "I'm not good enough" sea.
When I sail in the "I'm not good enough" sea, I try to remember how far I've come.
A former extremist.
"If I'm doing yoga, it's for a 30 day challenge." I completed the challenge and stopped doing yoga for months.
Then there was the time I signed up for a 5 day juice cleanse. I made it 2/3 of day one, quit and ate everything in sight (deprivation leads to binge eating). I see the benefits of juice cleanses, but it's something I just can't get on board with - I love to eat food and use my teeth to break it down. #animalinstincts
When anything or anyone is too extreme, it triggers old feelings relating to the eating disorder I struggled with for an entire decade. That sucked. I never want to feel that controlled again. Have you ever felt out of control with your eating?
Too extreme examples:
"NOT ORGANIC, I WON'T EAT THAT."
"I won't eat all day because I want to go out with my girlfriends for dinner."
"Okay, I'll go to a power yoga class and a 3 mile walk every day to lose weight."
"I'll eat perfectly 5 days a week + go wild on the weekend!"
"I already screwed up, might as well keep going."
I SOOOOOOO get it. I was that girl for a long time. I was so out of control with calorie counting, diet extremes and unhealthy calorie input (too much and too little).
Now that I know about healthy ways to live, this is what I've learned:
When my lips are chapped, I need to drink more water.
Bad headache, drink more water.
Really sleepy, eat more greens.
Pissed off for no good reason, go workout.
Feeling anxious/elephant on chest, take a yoga class or practice 8 deep breaths.
Eyes blurry, stop staring at the computer screen.
Butt feels mushy, do some squats, go for a walk or head to the gym immediately.
Feeling overwhelmed, stop what I'm doing and start writing.
Something bothering me, talk to someone.
Feeling tired after I eat, I'm eating the wrong things.
Pain on my left side, my digestion is backed up.
Smelling a little stinky, I'm detoxing.
Feeling unusually happy, uh oh, I'm about to crash - learning on even keel energy (so excited for Reiki training in 2nd week of December with Elana)!
And the list goes on
When you start to REALLY know your body and don't fight the cues, you'll learn how to give it exactly what it needs. When you are stuck in overwhelm or confusion, you are fighting the cues.
Love YOU. always. every day. even when you don't.